I recently threw a tantrum at God. ‘Why?’ You may be asking. I felt utterly frustrated at God’s process, which in my humble opinion, is not for the fainthearted.
In reading Psalms 105:16-20, verse 19 in particular, we see that before the Word of the Lord concerning Joseph (see Genesis 37:5-11) came to pass, it tested him.
Until the time that his word came: the word of the Lord tried him. (Psalm 105:19)
I was in my feelings about the frustrating part of the process where God ‘has you in limbo. This is the part of the journey where you feel abandoned and somewhat confused because though you know the end picture, you still don’t know how to get there. Unfortunately, you can’t turn back even if you wanted to because you have sat at the potter’s wheel and have come too far. It’s not that you are not familiar with who God is or haven’t experienced signs and wonders before.
I mean, who wants to go back to their destructive old ways?
I’m sure anyone called by God to pioneer or on assignment from the Lord can identify with this type of frustration to the point where Hebrews 11:1 comes alive, and you have to walk it out literally.
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. (Hebrews 11:1)
In Joshua 1:9, when the Lord told Joshua to be strong and courageous, not to be afraid or discouraged, for He would be with Him wherever he went, I’m sure the Lord was well aware that at some point in his assignment, Joshua would experience frustration. This frustration might seem overwhelming and could cause him to question his sanity or fatigue to the extent of wanting to throw in the towel or encourage him to try to talk himself out of the assignment.
Thankfully, the Lord sent two friends to check on me and remind me that He hears and sees me, He has not forgotten about me, and I’m not in the darkness.
When you experience your “faith has no eyes” moment, and you need help, by all means, to go to the Lord and have a transparent minute with Him.
Cast all your anxieties on Him, for He cares about you, and let Him deal (1 Peter 5:10).
Wait on the Lord so that He may renew your strength; so that you may run and not be weary (Isaiah 40:31).
And finally, trust that the Lord will heal you, restore your health, and heal your wounds (Jeremiah 30:17).
When a spider spins its web initially, it appears as many strings of thread that are all over the place, only for the final product to be a beautiful, intricate design.
If you’re going through such a moment, be encouraged. Don’t throw in the towel. People are waiting for you to step into the fullness of your assignment.
Walk your faith out, and God will meet you at the end of your obedience.